BEAU ARMY

Tonight I'd like to introduce everyone to Beau's Army (AKA his toys). He has many that aren't on here including S.A.S which stands for scary as sh!t. He is a baby doll who has had his face torn off by General Beau. I know I said the New York post would be tonight, but I'll probably do it tomorrow night. So without anymore interruptions meet Beau's Army. 

This is Cap'n Green. He is a green walrus who has a double life as a communist spy. He got this July 3rd and it was ruined within 2 days. I now am unable to find cap'n green or his remains, so his condition is unknown and so are his whereabouts. 

This one doesn't have a name, Beau's aunt got it for him (Mackenzie) for Easter. He used to have bunny ears and Beau shows no mercy to this one. 

I call this one Kong. It is a kong brand toy and it is the only one of Beau's toys that he hasn't showed an interest in destroying. 

This one is new, although we have tossed around a few names. 

When I gave him fly he didn't act like he really liked it, but as I'm typing this he is going to town trying to break it! 

This one has been with Beau since he was a baby. It goes by, Lizzie, Pinkie, and some others. 

This is Cap'n Greens partner in crime, Cap'n Red. Who is a communist crab. Beau has destroyed him. Stuffing is all over the place and now Cap'n Red is laying face down and flat.

This is Mr. Frog. Who is also new to the army, who has also been destroyed. *sigh*

This is hops the bunny. At first I thought he was a goner, but he seems to be doing fine. 

So there is Beaus army, with some unmentioned Victoria Secret PINK dogs, a huge monkey, a pumpkin, a hedge hog, and probably a lot others. Honestly I don't know why we spend so much money on his toys, they all end up unstuffed and unloved. 

And for some people reading this please note I'm not serious, I literally just made up all those names except for Cap'n Green. And Shayne actually came up with that one, I just thought it would be funny to show Beau's toys because I haven't showed him in a while. Here are some more updated pictures! 

He is a little brat and a big baby but he means everything to me. He knows how to make me smile or laugh at him. Looking back at the pictures when he was a little puppy make me sad, because a lot of people will say "We got a puppy, but then he/she grew up..he/she's not as cute as he/she used to be" and that is so sad! Yes puppies are puppies for a short time, but they still love you just the same. You get older and they don't love you any less, or stop thinking you hung the moon. Beau is so sweet and I can't imagine my life without him. 

-K

SPIRAL

So, here I am again, late on making a new post, not being consistent. I'm kind of feeling like things are just down falling. Nothing is really going to exact way I want it to or plan it to... but I guess thats just life. Anyway, the point of this post is that I've gotten back into dance, but as quickly as that started it ended. The dance studio just wasn't for me. I don't know, I just feel as if my life is doing the same thing it did in the middle of junior year. Just spiraling. *Movie Reference* Its like I'm in Coney Island and and on the tea cup ride, and they keep going faster and faster and they won't slow down. The ride doesn't stop it just keeps going. *If you can guess that movie your perfect* Maybe I'm just crazy, maybe I'm just someone who just doesn't belong with anybody other than immediate friends and family. I'm just ready for some adventure, which I definitely got in New York, which I will blog about shortly. But not stressful adventure, not that NY was stressful, just tiring. Some adventure where I can be myself, and just let go for once. I haven't done that in so long, and I don't mean let go as in start drinking, or partying because I'm not about that life. I'm talking about just feeling free and happy for more than a few hours. Maybe I should start making some changes in life, although I really don't have much that I think needs to be changed. I just want to let go without feeling judged or scared to be myself, and I haven't felt that way in so long... and thats a bad thing in my eyes. The only place I'm myself is when I'm alone or with one or two other people. I'm just ready to get older, and I know, EVERY kid says that... but I'm serious. I'm ready to be my own person and do what I want, when I want, and how I want. And I'm not disrespecting anyone, I just don't like being a puppet. I guess you could say I'm just not happy right now, and this is the second time its been this way since I've been this age. In junior year I had a lot of anxiety because of a certain class... and a lot of people thought I was overreacting and I felt like I could talk to nobody, like I was just alone and everyone thought I was being dramatic. But I'd burst into tears doing homework for that class, after that class I'd be in a horrible mood (which was quickly turned back happy thanks to my amazing U.S. History teacher ), but I thought I was going to need medication to be able to remain sane. And I feel like I'm just repeating that spiral... and I don't know why, I have hardly anything to do, no HUGE responsibilities, so maybe its all in my head... anyway, sorry that this post was a little boring and maybe just stupid. Or depressing. Either way I'm sorry if you had a horrible time reading it. But this is my blog and its about me, maybe this is where I belong. Writing about life one day at a time. Again, I just don't know right now. Well, I'll post my trip in NY tomorrow, and I'll try to make this blog like my therapist. God knows I need one. Just kidding (not).

-K