JAX

This post won't be fun, and it has been hard trying to find the words to write this. I'm not going to reflect on the anger I have for this situation, instead I'm going to use this post as a happy, positive memory. As many of you know, our family dog Jax has died. He was ran over doing his favorite thing, chasing the back of cars. I still do not fully understand how this happened, why nobody stopped our why nobody said sorry. But what I do know, is that Jax was such a good dog. For those of you who don't know who Jax was, he was my mom's family dog. He was my little brother basically. We got him when he was a little puppy, and we had him until this last Tuesday (The 14th I believe). Laying that dog in a grave was so hard, so was saying goodbye to one of the best dogs I've gotten to know. I remember when we got him he was nothing more than a little ball of fluff. He was super white and had such pretty eyes. The first night we had him he stayed in our bathroom, he scratched the door all up and left a permenant mark. Jax LOVED his kids. He was so protective of us, it was so cute. One of the first videos we have of him is where he was barking at himself in the oven reflection. As he got older he adopted other habits. One was when someone would say "Who is it?" or "Go get 'em" he would hall butt to the door. Like I said, protective. He was so loving, he'd stay up most the night protecting us. If I came out of my room at night to get a drink he would be right there. He was such a great uncle to Beau. Beau and Jax were best buddies until Jax's life got cut WAY TO SHORT. I would give anything to have one more day with him. Jax was also really smart, he knew our schedules, and he knew us. You don't come across a dog like that often. After the day Jax was taken home to doggy heaven, we were all super sad. Mackenzie didn't understand, none of us did. Weoften find ourselves asking "Why don't others view them [pets] as humans?" Because we do. Beau? Thats my son. Lilly? Thats my little girl! Jax was my brother and nothing less. I believe that when a pet is taken, a family member is taken. And its not fair. They already don't outlive us. Why cut their lives even shorter? I'll never understand that. They aren't there our whole life, but we are their whole life. So with this post I'd like for everyone to just say a prayer for not only our family but for Jax. I hope he is up chewing on God's shoes (He loved that), and eating super amazing busy bones (His favorite treats). I can tell Beau is pretty sad, he acted strange the day after Jax died. He was just confused as to where his best friend was. I know Beau and Jax will meet again one day. For now though, it is so hard to go day by day not hearing his paws across the wood floor. We used to play "chase the dog" with him, which was basically tag. He HATED swings. I think he thought they were taking his kids away. He used to bite the bottom of the swings or worse your behind, and try to stop it. It was pretty amusing. I'm going to miss Jax so much. I'll always love him, and I'll never forget his sweet little face, or sweet sweet personality.

2013 Blogmas Day 1

"Blogmas" is just blogging during December, about Christmas, and yes I will be doing this xD Hint hint the title! I know I'm a few days late though!  

So, I haven't blogged in a while.

I've been so busy with school. I think teachers just like to try to make us fail. 

Haha, anyway.

I'm so happy Christmas is here. Well December. 

This is my absolute favorite time of the year. Between the music, family, lights, food, decorations, my families traditions (telling the story of Jesus's birth), and more, somewhere I find like a complete peace of mind with everything. It's like time when I don't have to stress. 

But I am really stressed out right now. I work so hard in a certain class and get a bad grade. I'm just sick of the way this certain teacher teaches. When the top 3-4 students in the junior class that are in it don't have the best of grades then there is a problem. 

Anyway, enough complaining, can you tell I'm stressed?

Beau is doing good. We went through a small little week where he wouldn't stop throwing up, we couldn't figure out what was wrong, until we saw him chugging water. Things have been a little stressful with him, but it's been alright! I guess it's really just in the mornings when it's crazy!

My thanksgiving was great, I got to see tons of my family and I got to see shayne as well. I was invited to his families but I have such a huge family it's hard for me to get around during the holidays/: 

My birthday is like 2 weeks away and then Christmas! :D 

I can't wait!! 

And I can't wait to buy for others too! 

So here's what happened after my final Thanksgiving:

CHRISTMAS SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE.

Our tree!(:

My little tree(:

My room! And shayne and Beau sleeping! (:

Uncle Jax and Beau love each other so much! They are to cute!(:

He's the best cuddle puppy ever! "Uncle" Carson! Haha!

No school tomorrowww!!! 

Yay!

Okay! Well I'm really going to try to post more, I love blogging and really want to do it I just have to find time!

Night!

-K

HONEST

I've been extremely busy today..I'm worn out! And I'm not looking forward to driving tomorrow..most teens are like "I get to drive now!! Yay!!" And I'm like "Dad..pick me up.." I don't know why I hate it so much maybe it's just the length or the same old scenery I've seen for 5 years. 

Anyway! 

I missed Beau while I was at school today! I just couldn't wait to get home because when I let him out of his "house" he's so happy!

Oh! By the way...Beau slept ALL NIGHT! Yes! All night long!! I was so proud!! And he actually had one accident today in Nana's laundry room...and when I got on to him he looked at me like "sorry ma..." It was cute!

Him and jax (my moms dog) have been playing together and everything a lot more than yesterday! I didn't think to take some pictures just because I was doing something or other at that moment.

So Beau has been doing really good and he's getting used to this routine I've got going! I just can't wait to spend all day with him! 

He's sound asleep the same place he was yesterday! 

So shayne today had the most hilarious remark in 7th hour to some girl saying he wasn't "strong" I'm not going to say what he said but it made everyone laugh as he walked out! (She said it first so he wasn't just being mean!) it literally made my day because she shut up and sat down!  I really love the "bluntness" and "honesty" about him! Sometimes I wish I could be more blunt with people and just tell them how it is..some people need that..and I wish they had that! So I'm very lucky to be with someone who's not ashamed or scared to defend himself or someone else!

Well I'm really tired and I need some sleep! (Even though I get a bunch..) 

Goodnight all!

-K